Grown to realise.

2011 has been a tough year for me, and life just throw things at me thinking that i can handle it. But one thing that ive to admit that im starting to grow, and when someone grows, you get reminders inside your head unknowingly, you know what to do, you make decisions, somehow i guess, everyone just grown to realise.

Many things grew this year really, compared to past years. the bond between people, the willingness to forgive and forget, maturity, conscience.

Love for me, has grown, personally and of course towards people, regardless whether its friendly love or love love. I come to realise that hatred/ dislike brings nothing to each other. Its a give and take situation i guess. whats the use of hatred? when we can actually all be somehow be in peace?the reason, why i dont like hate? is because ive actually seen what it can do to people. And i dont like the idea of it i guess? its useless.

Love love? everyone have their ups and downs in relationships i guess, its just how you handle it i guess. and sometimes i guess its alright to have that mindset of thinking :"its me." because who knows? maybe it really is. and im not gonna talk about love problems here because i guess you gotta handle this kind of things yourself, not on your blog.

But i just want to add how love can really make you do so much at one time. it has really put me at a position where because of love i dont care about whats right or wrong ,but as long as the other person is happy. and im grateful for that. it just makes you feel good that because of what youre doing, and it makes someone smile at the end of the day, thats all that is enough.

Friends, wow, till now, i have a few close ones but you know there's some kind of emptiness that just clings on to everyone, showing how lonely they are, making them feel even more empty. That feeling sucks. i swear haha. and sometimes its just that problems you have with yourself that you cant explain. YES IM GOING THROUGH THIS PHASE NOW. Fad went to malaysia until sunday, just realise how nights are more quiet without that capricorn haha. and its like..i dont know who to turn to i guess. and omar's asleep as usual.

And finally myself, i've been reflecting on myself recently alooot.

Im having personal problems i guess. and maybe ill find the person to tell one day, maybe him, when the time's right.