hihi okay whats today's date? 18? april?

i dont know how i should be feeling now, im tired of crying im tired of feeling this way, i dont know whats even happening.

i want the moment back again, where we were both very much in love with each other, worrying how we felt about each other, happily laughing. what has caused this?

is it the lack of time? is it the lack of communication? is it the lack of trust?

is it just me?

help me someone, i need to get out of this.

i dont wanna be feeling like this all the time, i need to focus, i need to be independent.

i want to be and need to be.

i want to be that worryfree ardini again.

i guess, we just drift apart.