hey blog.
everytime i update here is becuz no one knows about my existence in blogging.
theres so much things i want to say, but it comes to a point where maybe venting out here isnt worth my time.
so many things changed, in such a short period of time. i can feel myself changing, and moodswings here and there. whats happening?
i find myself super anal sometimes, but i have nobody to tell things too.
short lived happiness is the perfect phrase to describe my life.
i guess its just me, looking at the lonely times i have alone.
nobody truly understands how i feel, some of them just don't even if they try very hard to.
ive just been through so much things alone in my life, that when i think about it, it seems so easy to cry. and that again is something i do alone. minor silent breakdowns that no one knows about.
am i such a difficult person? i try my best, i really do. something i tell myself all my life, to try my best, for everyone to be happy. but ultimately, im the one left behind.
when will my life get back on track? all i know is the only happiest times i seem to bring and live through, is as a child. but still then, ive brought problems. i really hate myself, i really do. and i admire those,who have the ability to love themselves and their lives.
the only question that's been in my head all this time,
-am i someone worth living?
