Even heroes have the right to plea.

i need a new environment.

i dont like rushy mornings, i dont like cramped messy rooms, i dont like family members who dont care, i dont like having to plug in my earphones in the morning and seem like everythings okay, when the truth is, im just using the music to block out the things that i face, the things i just dont want to deal with. Bad things. And all the time, haha i cant even use most of the time, the music i listen to, are relatively slow,emotional songs,i wouldnt say sad, and because i just nee the low acoustic beat to calm my nerves down. At the same time, the lyrics, is my feelings being sang into my ears.

im not perfect but ill keep trying cause thats what i said i would do from the start.

Sometimes people get blamed for the things they dont do, and no matter how perfect you are, i believe you have been through that. Unfortunately,im one of those who experiences it everyday,everytime.ok maybe not everyday. hahahaha, but the feeling of being accused is definitely not something anyone would like to face. i dont like it. i guess because im the one who knows the truth. the big picture, while sometimes a certain someone who blames you for whatever reason, it doesnt feel right because the person dont know the real reason.

While you do, the accused. . Fighting back, is sometimes not the way out. because youre in the wrong already.

Life sucks? tell me about it.

drinking from an empty cup, expect nothing.

i drank this cup of milo like in 2-3 mins yesterday hahaha :)

milo is awesome, i go night study because of free milo, and i like my cup, inside the cup also got a marking on where you must drink hahahah. ok enough, lets talk about today..

today, wednesday, 18 august, i didnt go to school:((((
and regretted after i woke up like pft okie shall not skip anymore.. i hope. im quite wake now, gonna grab a cup of milo later on. :)

my life feels like im drinking from an empty cup now :(

its like im lost, nothing for me to look forward to, no directions.

i need a parachute, because i know nobody's gonna catch me.

shall see how's school tmrw, and face the desperate situation again :(

goodnight.

@3.26AM

drink plenty of water! for those puasa-ing please always hydrate yourself after one whole day of perservation!

:D

dont mind my loser shirt and crazy hair. hehe i like the bone at my neck!

whhopppiex :) thinking if i should sleep and then go skool or just not sleep :/

wondering aloud.

today, was def a fine day in school, but i was sleeping most of the time. no not as usual haha.

i was talking nadz and fareha and like the usuals about our class, recently alot of my classmates and those who are like my super good friends, are transferring out. :(
and ive been pondering over my options for my future. im a little scared so to say, like a lvls and all, since studying aint my thing. but i promise ill try at least :)

and how i wish i can just leave everything behind, run away and do whatever i want, and be recognised for my work someday. oh man. i just wish i can, wish.

tmrw 's wednesday, the unproductive day of the week, oh my chinese. im really considering going someplace else and not be lost here in MI. thinking of..

plus my interest is not here. i'll think about it and just consider the consequences withdrawing.

right now, i just have to face the current funnannoying 10A4 haha, and omg i created a word funnanoying,something to call ralph.

ok nadz if youre reading this, heres a shoutout to you. and fareha :)

awesome peeps.

Bye for now, ill try and update more sorry!

We're all in this alone.

Dying is only one thing to be sad over... Living unhappily is something else.